It's been more than a decade that I am on this platform. However, I was there with my diary often. Old black and white medium where one can flaunt freely. Plus, that's private, no one gonna judge me for my thoughts, my identity, my mindset and bla bla bla..
Now, we are so much into videos rather small video clips era, reading or writing is old school and outdated. But, when I read my old blogs, I just felt nostalgic more than I see any picture or the video. Each word felt me same as of I am writing and living those moments all again..
I've written about work, some news stories of that time, my relationship with my husband, feelings of having kid, etc. Though I have missed on many pieces of life..
This decade had been ups and downs, of course it is for everyone.
Major take away was Darshit, my husband's cofounded company got acquired, we were suddenly felt windfall. We managed that very well as financial gain is more difficult to handle than the stable hand to mouth routine. Years before that were struggling and busy. I often went on guilt trip either for Pushya, my son or the career stagnancy. I was becoming different person at each passing year. Many times my teammates wanted me to grow and come out of my nest. Somehow, I felt my demand was more towards family and my son. Also, I was becoming less ambitious. I looked up to the job and not the flourishing career, my choice of work, learnings, growth.. I sticked to paycheck and mindset also shifted to low level financial transactions. I feared in taking risks. As household was at stake.
People pay price to dream. But learn a lot in the journey. No path is bad. All leads to different destination. No destination is perfect and none is less either. When we reflect on the roads then being at this side we have opinions but those can also lead to different turns and bumps.
We have flourished at family level. I have spent quality time with my son and with my home. I bet I could make my house the home with giving positive energy, laughter, care and concern. Tried to pour best of the values in our son and being the role model as a couple who respect and love each other that he would see the marriage system as a positive association. We have tried to inculcate positive belief system for himself, encouraged his various hobbies and activities along with free time to feel the freedom with responsibility.
No more old friends, I regret. But yes to more new friends.. It's my avoidance in putting efforts, overly in love with family. I could have pushed my limits here or could have prioritized better. I had a few deep connections in school and university, those can't vanish but will return in this life, I'm sure.
No visibly bad habits. Yes, if count procrastination, overthinking, oversharing, excessive screen time..
On and off have been health conscious, be it exercise, healthy eating, trying to be positive. I have explored cooking and still it is going forward. Trying to inculcate reading, it's hard and distracting.
That's most of last decade high level.. There is much more inside.. Now I am expecting high on writing.
